Here’s what I’ve learned this week….when you don’t feel so
hot, that tends to put you in a bad mood, and as a result your level of
optimism or hope seems to plummet into some dark crevice where it doesn’t come
back too easily. I find it ironic that
one of our topics for conversations this week was pharmaceuticals given the
fact that I’ve not gone to a doctor for anything other than a routine checkup
since I was about 8 years old, and in the past week’s time I’ve been twice. It’s interesting to think about. I think there are definitely those of us who
just hate going, but where do you draw the line? At some point we have to admit
that we’re not trained in the medical field and a doctor is someone who knows
far more than us, and not all drugs are really bad. So after a week of attempting to drink more
fluids and a failed attempt at drinking cranberry juice (I think it tastes
absolutely terrible) to a doctor I went, and two prescriptions later I was
hoping in a couple of days I’d feel better.
Alas, I was not that lucky so after a conversation with my Aunt, who is
a nurse and gets frustrated with my lack of desire to just go to the doctor
when I don’t feel well, I headed to the doctor’s office for a second time.
This is perhaps my favorite part. My second visit resulted in being told
“Everything looks normal, finish out the antibiotic, and take these pills to
mask the symptoms, maybe your body just needs a little more time to finish
fighting off the infection. Call us on
Monday and let us know if your symptoms are back.” My frustration with that definitely shows
that given a situation that I can’t figure out on my own, I do look to doctors
to be able to help. What happens when those you look to for answers don’t have
them? I just want to feel better so I
can be back to my usual optimistic self….although perhaps the stress of classes
coming to an end are playing into this as well.
Or maybe it’s the fact that its been too cold and I’ve not gotten enough
“outside” time. Regardless, here I am in
a foul mood writing a blog where we’re suppose to think critically about HUGE
issues and find some source of hope…..
Here’s my thoughts.
Thank goodness there is a world of so many beautiful people who are
thinking and talking about these issues as we are attempting to do with our
cohort, because at some point we’re all bound to have a bad day or week or
month or goodness gravy that poor soul who it lasts years for. The point is though, as we all hit those
downfalls where our cynical idea of hope is perhaps the zombie apocalypse will
come which will mean we won’t have to solve these HUGE issues, and even more
importantly we won’t have to finish the mounds of homework due way too soon,
there is always someone else who has been through their bad day and is ready to
push ahead with a positive attitude.
Today, that’s not me. Who knows
though, maybe the pills I got from the doctor will mean I’m ready to take that
on tomorrow.
**Oh here’s a positive realization, because I just can’t
help myself. Even in a bad mood I
managed to check one assignment off my list, which is a step in the right
direction. : ) Too bad I was too impatient to wait for my
poor mood to pass, although this was quite helpful.


